Care for your self and soul

There are twenty four hours a day given to you, to do with what you will. Hmmmmm twenty four hours, doesn't seem like much, but to many 120 hours a week are wished away to get to the weekend, where many people try to cram as much in to 48 hours as possible, before misery sets in again! Why do we do this? Why can't we enjoy each and every minute, hour and day which is on offer?

I can tell you that I have spent many hours focussing on situations which really aren't a priority or a concern of mine. These situations have generally involved worrying about others, what they think, feel, believe, perceive etc. How others see me and what I believe, how I handle situations, what I do, where I go etc. What have I been thinking? Why should I care or worry about what others think?

“If you are busy pleasing everyone, you are not being true to yourself”
― Jocelyn Murray

I have spent the past few months so completely and utterly focussed and consumed with what others think and feel. As I delve deeper and deeper into others lives, issues and worries, my breath becomes shorter, shallower and I lose who I am. Not that I know exactly who I am, but I choke and standstill for a moment....then I discover my self!

One morning a complete stranger entered my home, whom I had welcomed in.  In one moment the effect of this exasperated every ounce of 'keeping my cool' I ever had! This moment left me motionless, breathless, winded and utterly disappointed in how one human being can be so cruel and beastly. The lack of gratitude, grace and goodness was enough to shake me to pieces and question my own values and beliefs. After a good bout of discussion with likeminded humans, who I take liberty to call 'earth angels' I realised that I need to just let it go! Do not let others affect my own beliefs and values. Do not let others distort the truth I hold close and how I want to lead my life.

It's so darn hard though! To feel as though you are wading through a pond of reeves, with the gusty wind hammering every move you make, each direction you take, when would you ever feel as though you are moving in the same direction as the world around you? The truth is, until you let the external factors go, let other people's issues and dramas go, meditate on your own beliefs and your own personal mantra to look after YOURSELF first, you will continue to feel stuck.

"breath is the private mantra
guiding prayer
follow your feet knees hips
belly heart hands
be willing to lose your balance
surrender to what matters most
and dive into the unknown"

[Waiting for my life...Reclaiming the lost pieces of me, 2012, Nancy Levin]

Today was a release for me, in one moment my spirit lifted, faith restored and I realised I AM following my vision and mission for my life purpose. I am finally looking after MY SELF and from doing this I will only be able to assist those around me. From being true to myself, others will embrace this energy and vibration. Those who do not, do not matter in the grand scheme of who you are, and what you are about.

“I can't compete for likes and follows, I won't win. What I will do is pour out my heart and allow love to reach those that need it.” 
― E'yen A. Gardner