Faith

Faith takes courage
Takes belief
Takes strength

Faith takes time
Takes a moment
To go the length

Faith is a journey
From a seed
To fruition

With ups, there come downs
Come learning
Come tuition

Then that pause
That pause of silence
Of realisation, of stillness

For that courage, that belief, that strength
Happened
The thought began
The journey began
Embrace the thought, embrace the journey

You are faith

Balance

So, after a crazy few months of building upon a service so incredibly close to my heart I came close to crashing and burning....again! I seem to have an issue of go go go until I can not go anymore! BALANCE is what I need. I think I have come to realise that I consider balance a 'luxury', or 'treat'. Why should I be permitted to have time to myself? Why should I be allowed to do something fun? What gives me the right to just do sweet nothing?!! Life...that's what. Why do I continue to beat myself up, wondering what others think, whether I am doing enough, pleasing others, doing enough therapy, or spending enough time with my girls ....what is this all about? I am burdened with what the Buddhists call the 'monkey mind'—the thoughts that swing from limb to limb, stopping only to scratch themselves, spit and howl. The problem with all this swinging through the vines of thoughts is that you are never where you are.

I was incredibly lucky to have been taken away from 'life as I knew it' recently and removed myself from the country. Still in disbelief that it was happening, as for once...I did not organise it, I did not plan it, I did not stress nor micro manage every single detail of the trip! The day came and we were off! As in my blog entry back in 2011, this was yet another spiritually fulfilling, life learning, soul searching, heart warming and gratitude gaining journey. When you stand before a giant buddah, step bare foot into a Chalong temple, be graced by the gentle natured elephant, meet so many humble, passionate and welcoming people, who I now take liberty in calling friends and bathe in the warm soothing sun, who wouldn't come home with a new set of priorities in life!

In my quest to see Hummingbirds Early Intervention and Education Service bloom and help families I have also seen such a wonderful improvement in dear Ruby and big sister Sophie. What joy it brings me to see a smile every day on Ruby's face and the happiness Sophie radiates from tickling and adoring her little sister. What peace it brings me knowing that I am teaching my girls that no matter each person's abilities we are all as lovely as each other and deserve nothing less. The way Sophie adores the other children in the centre and becomes so excited knowing who is in the following day so she can cuddle and play with them and teach them what she is learning at school! This is what life is about.

Yes we all make mistakes, I have made plenty and without doubt make plenty more! As Marilyn once said  “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” ― Marilyn Monroe.

Now I am filled again with love and light I will continue on this journey of passion and compassion. I will continue to encourage a better world for our children who need the extra assistance in life and support the parents blessed with such an amazing role in this world. We will all burn out, lose faith, lack motivation and make mistakes.
I know that each time I make a mistake, I ponder then learn from it. I retreat, I pray, I doubt, I seek, I ask, I eat, I cry! At the end of it all I learn and move on.

" There’s a crack (or cracks) in everyone…that’s how the light of God gets in.”
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love